It’s not about traveling or moving, nor about expanding our family. My current wholehearted happiness derives solely from releasing my fears and taking a huge leap of faith… No more questioning, no more thinking, no more self-doubting, in other words, being brave enough to be my-true-self and follow my calling. Do what I’ve come here to do…
Yesterday, I enrolled to the world’s best and largest holistic health coaching program, namely to the Institute for Integrative Nutirtion that I’ve already recommended to some of you and I will continuously do so! And by this seemingly small act I feel so wonderfully overwhelmed and happy that words can’t even begin to describe!
Huge relief, excitement and joy at the same time is what I’m feeling. I never would have thought I would feel this way but clearly it’s that important to me and feels like my soul is dancing. It’s sort of witnessing my own birth – to my own true self – if that makes any sense. Like when we feel fully supported by inner world and by the whole universe! The kind of happiness that comes from deep within. No need to explain, you just feel it!
I still can remember how very excited I was to get accepted to the university 16 yrs ago and embark on my independence journey but the excitement was not even close to what I’m feeling now! This is the moment when I turn my own passion into my mission and learn how to help others in the kindest and most loving possible way!
After years of battling self-doubt, lack of confidence, trying to prove myself and trying hard for my relatives and friends to accept or support me, I realized two years ago it’s only me who can’t accept and love myself and making me feel miserable at times. All the frustration or feeling of unworthiness was coming from within. It’s me who had a problem with myself – thus with the whole world occasionally. And that’s what’s been changing for years and now I know that waiting for acceptance by others is not just not necessary for living a happy and fulfilled life but downright self-destructive. Once we learn to accept fully who we are and embrace it we start seeing and accepting and loving every beautiful beings around us and living in constant harmony, happiness and acceptance with what life brings us. We begin to attract people who inspire us and from whom we can learn and with their help we create our routines to maintain this harmony.
Then we reach a point in life when we don’t want to change or judge ourselves or others any more. We accept what is. Not wanting it to be more. It’s not even about changing, it’s about being more of who we truly are. Getting comfortable in our own skin. In our own life. Letting our soul shine through to the outside world. Let’s not forget that every time we overcome our fears and are brave enough to be out of our comfort zones, we are continuously growing.
Mainly because of our social conditioning, it takes a lot of and continuous work, time and patience to really get to know ourselves deeply, to befriend ourselves and realize we’re never alone. We’re all in this together. The happier we are the more we have to offer and share!
Only when we begin trusting ourselves completely do we begin trusting everyone and the world around us. We realize there’s no enemy – there are only people who just need more love and support!
The most important thing is to have faith in ourselves and in life because life is meant to be beautiful – for every one! And everything does happen for a reason! If for none other reason is to learn and grow from each experience we invite in our lives!
And this is how I’ve been feeling for quite some time. And I’m not writing this in English because this is how I planned it, but because this is how it came through me. From my soul – without a grammar check in place ;-) I just let it pour out from my heart in whatever language it wants to come. On my way to the metro station this morning I realized that the happiest and most balanced part of me is the ‘English part of me’. This is what I have acquired from this language – a full-blown positivity and I love it! On the other hand, I am also being completely aware that there’s still much work on accepting the Hungarian positive side of me ;-) But with patience it will happen. It’s all a learning curve and I’m looking forward to it just like any other new discovery and acquaintance that will enter in my life!
So what made my day yesterday and the reason I couldn’t sleep at all from all the excitement was that I enrolled to my dream school, the school I was looking for but only revealed itself in front of me when I became ready. As they say, when the student is ready, the teacher will appear.
Thus here I am, embarking on a new chapter of my life, taking all my dreams with me but for now, I’m just celebrating this moment!
Because thinking, talking and writing about it, really is just one thing. Taking that step you know, you feel, is the right step toward fulfilling your life purpose, is a whole other. And taking that step, enrolling in this school what makes me wholeheartedly happy right now! To me happiness does not mean we are supposed to be laughing and jumping in joy all the time. It means that we let ourselves feel and experience our feelings whatever they be and align ourselves with the rhythm of nature. It means that we are brave enough to live the life we dream of and know, even when it seems all grey at the moment, that everything is okay and it will always be okay. And finally, it means to be grateful for every experience we have during the course of our lives because we can always learn from them and grow further and become richer by them.
So cheers to finding our own path and to be inspired and let others to be inspired by our true essence and presence.
”The most important thing about dreams is having one, and then following it”